The new normal

I've done three infusions. I'm starting to find a new normal in life. We've found a routine and we are starting to know what to expect. Chemotherapy day is usually uneventful. We start with lab draws from my arm. Then we meet with our oncologist. Then the infusion chair where the chemotherapy is administered. The lab draws are still a struggle for me, you would think after all of this I would have conquered my irrational fears, but I havent. Meeting with the oncologist today gave us more hope for healing. He showed us my chest x-Ray from last week, and you can see in the X-ray that the mass in my chest is much smaller, you can almost not see it anymore. So we know the chemo is working! I had a chest X-ray, pulmonary function test and EKG last week due to some intense chest pains. It turned out to be heartburn but they needed to be sure because the chemo can cause problems with the heart and lungs. The days after chemo are usually spent in bed or resting. I feel my worst those first four days after chemo. Mild nausea, an extreme exhaustion, insomnia at night, sensitive skin, mouth sensitivity, and a few other more personal unpleasantries.
Cora is doing great with my mom caring for her. I'm getting to rest whenever I need. Mom is keeping our home and helping with whatever we need. It's been such a relief to have someone to watch Cora for chemo days, and all my other appointments. I also get to rest whenever I need to! I know, you don't have to tell me, we've got it made! :-)
If you're interested, well, even if you're not, I'm going to share a few things we've learned lately. I think the first is that our community, church, friends, family, and even strangers are showing us God's love for us. Because God loves us he is using his church, his people to reach out to us and love us. This is humbling, this is overwhelming. Bringing us a meal, sending us cards, praying for us, sending a care package or flowers, gifts, helping us, in all forms this is God using his church! What a privilege! I am just convicted and overwhelmed in one. The love is awesome, and we need it!! But I'm convicted because we all need it, right? The couple with too many responsibilities that feels they are drowning daily, all those tired mama's out there that feel desperate and overwhelmed, those with health ailments, broken relationships, an aching for a spouse, loneliness, marriage difficulties, loss of a child. We've all got hurts and trials. We all need love. I think what cancer has taught me most recently is that there is no end to the love that needs to be poured out on all people. I pray that God will use me like he has used so many of you in my life! The need is great, find someone to love!