September Update

The (medical) facts: I am doing well. I completed my fifth round today, which would be my tenth infusion. I have to do six rounds, or 12 infusions. That is only two left! Wow!! Time always seems to fly in life, but right now I am welcoming the quickness of time. The last few chemo infusions were hard. I got sick throughout the administering of chemo. I clutched a vomit bag and waited... I never did throw up but I felt like I was on the verge most of the time. I cried and told Ben I couldn't do anymore. They were hard days. But today was much better, I tried a few things to keep me preoccupied and it worked! I was still sick but I felt like it was manageable. The days following after chemo are still hard. I think my body doesn't spring back as quickly as it did in the beginning. Some of my side effects are worse too, like the skin rash. At my last appointment my blood counts were low and not looking great, so they gave me some injections to help recover those counts. This week they looked much better and I was able to proceed with chemo.

On a more personal note, I am doing ok. I think better than the last time I blogged. I am struggling with the general down in spirits type of struggles that come with feeling ill. When you are continually sick you kind of have to fight for joy. Or at least I have. I have to focus on all the good. It's pilled all around me, so I focus on that. I turned 30 this month. The days surrounding my birthday brought more reminders of all the good in my life. Cora is a constant source of joy in our lives. The family, friends, and church that have surrounded us at this time in life are huge for me! My mom being here to help me is also huge. I need help physically with my home and my child, but I also need help to stay positive. I could go on and on about God providing for all our needs at this time, but I will just leave it at he is blessing us and providing for all our needs right now. We are thankful. We are almost done... I can kind of see the light at the end of the tunnel. October 19th is my last treatment. Then I will have surgery to remove the port. Then 3 to 6 months later another PET scan to see where we stand.